Simple Things In Life

I have been enjoying my break away from work, work, work. I am so stress freeeeeeeeee. It's nice to feel at peace, have the time and space to just chill. The simple things in life are these - a nice hot cup of teh tarik, the time to enjoy my reading and to smell the flowers. Bliss!!

Teh Tarik

Ultimate indulgence - reading

Beautiful flora

A New Beginning

Unbeknown to anyone, I have been feeling all sorts for the past week or so. I have indulged and have been enjoying my disenchantment all by myself....is it so worth it???

Well, it was 'fun' for a while but i am so not into self-knocking myself. There are other important things that could occupy my thoughts, positive things that can make me happy. I have always teased a good friend of mine, Rx whenever she is talking about depressing stuff to stop it and instead of dwelling on it to just wonder why a particular stand of tree by the roadside is dropping its leaves...it always made her laugh...bless her!!

I have learned a valuable lesson this week. It's so lonely feeling depressed. Its not a good feeling especially if you kept it to yourself...i think it can be dangerous and it can bring self-harm in the long run if it's not brought out into the open. The worst thing about it is no-one knew how you are feeling inside!!! I realise that talking to someone helps. You have to deal with your anger or depression in a positive way. I did....i spoke to my cat about it!!!! I think, the cat understood and it was extra loving to me. Ohhh, the love of this gentle creature is so unconditional...i am so honoured and humbled by it.

Anyway, it is a beautiful day....the sun is bright and the sky is blue. I am healthy and i have the means to indulge my guilty pleasures (see my entry-Oct 2007). I am grateful for the blessings i have in my life. I am here. I am blessed.

Random

Have you ever feel a sense of disaffection?. And yet you can't talk to anyone about it?!!! There are definitely some issues that disturb me, maybe its my fault and for what it's worth, I am sorry. Anyway, let me deal with this 'thing' in my own time, it will pass and i will move on. I have been telling those nearest and dearest to me that, anything that make you feel good is always going to be drawing in more. However, i can't seem to shake these feelings of inertia, alienation and dare i say it depression!! I seem to be ok on the outside, but on the inside..its such a mess!!!

Anyway, I have the right to feel disenchanted and angry if I want to! It's not a crime and I am not affecting those i love with my foul mood. I must say that i have been very controlled. I should pat myself on the shoulders for hiding this thing well from others.

Don't worry people...I shall be ok. This feeling will soon pass.

My List

One true fact about me is that i love to make a list. It belies of an organised planner but in reality however, I make the lists but rarely complete them. However, I must say that there's nothing satisfying as finishing something when I'm done. Just check the item and the 'to do' is crossed off. Now, my best, best friend (BBF) is one of those people who writes her lists and she can actually complete her lists - yes, she is super, duper efficient but I am prettier!! :-p har!har!har!!!

Why do i keep making a list? well, lists are necessary for the times my memory decides to take the day off. BBF, Ns and Rx will smile when they read that particular sentence...hey gals, its not an admission to aging ok!!!

I make many lists. I will share some of them.

• Countries I want to visit
• Things to pack for a trip
• Hair products to check out
• Recipients of my home-baked scones
  
• Possible nicknames (BBF, Ns & Rx know of this!!)
• Collection of books
  
• Things to buy when i am mrs. multi-billionaire

I write my lists everywhere: in the car, in the bathroom, even whilst shopping and once at the vet while the cat was being vaccinated! Each month, i make a life-lesson list and i will highlight the best life-lesson for that month. Recently, i have a light bulb moment, i decided to do something that i have listed as to-do for years. I wrote, I finished and I conquered. Will write about that one of these days.

Watch this space.

Au revoir my love

My baby Cha Cha passed on 16 February. Her death was totally unexpected. I was absolutely in shock -- it didn't register that she died until two days later. Huge, fat tears rolled down my cheeks and it didn't stop for ages....

Cha Cha was 8 years old when she died. She brought a lot of love and joy to me. She was independent, strong, fearless and the so-called 'terror of the neighbourhood'!! Cha Cha - you will always be remembered. I loved you baby and I missed you always. Au revoir sweetheart.

Hello 2009, Goodbye 2008

The following ten items are my most memorable & unforgettable for 2008...

1. My trip to Singapore with H & A at the beginning of january 2008;

2. Closure - a blast from the past;

3. Maldives -- a beautiful country;

4. My holidays with Best,Best Friend in Dubai and Singapore;

5. Adam and Aidan made their debut;

6. My saddest day - my baby Carrot the cat died;

7. Moments and good conversations with my close friends;

8. Bonding session with the family;

9. R & L flew on a plane for the very first time. It was wonderful to see them so excited;

10. A trip to KL with the family & kids - fun, exhausting and yet memorable

A Tribute to my baby

Carrot the cat died yesterday, 23 December 2008. He was 17 years old. Carrot was born in Yorkshire, England. He came to live with me when he was just a month old. He was this tiny, playful, orange furry kitty. He was absolutely adorable. He got me at first sight.

He had an interesting personality and attitude. He got spunk. He was a top cat. He adored me to bits and he never bit nor scratched me even when i teased him. Others were afraid of his mighty claws. He was a tough warrior. He was a law unto himself. Carrot did not take teasing very lightly from others. He would find ways to get even. He would put his sick in his enemies' shoes, scratched their precious possessions to bits or the tormentors would find their properties in his litter box. Towards the end, he mellowed a bit and sleeping was his favourite past time. However, he would show his teeth from time to time. Ask the vet, he had scars to prove it. hehehe

Carrot was with me through the good, the bad and the ugly. He taught me about friendship, companionship, unwavering loyalty and unconditional love. There will always be one Carrot the cat. He will be sadly missed. Good bye my darling baby. You were a great cat. I loved you Carrot and I always will.

Carrot - my baby